ACTIVITY LOG

LostSideDead Year 2025

A running log of what I have been building, fixing, and thinking about across code, graphics, and life.

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2025.12.08 (4)
Kaleidoscope (MXMOD Mesh)
2025.12.08 (3)
My Thoughts on AI-assisted coding

I think AI-assisted coding can be both a good thing and a bad thing. It can make you lazy and dependent on tools, or it can enhance your coding skills. It is all about how you wield the tools. If you just copy and paste or click to integrate the changes, always without knowing what it does first, that can be a problem for your project in the long term. Yes, that may fix an initial problem, but it can lead to problems and hard-to-diagnose bugs down the line.


The models are getting better every day, and I use them when needed. Examples are if I cannot remember something or need my code analyzed.


It is making it easier and easier to create programs, and I think that is a good thing.


2025.12.08 (2)
Why Creativity Matters To Me

Creativity has always been a major part of how I see myself and how I work. When I create software, I am not just writing instructions for a machine to follow. I am taking the thoughts in my head and shaping them into something that exists in the real world. That process feels important because it shows what the human mind can actually do. We take something abstract and turn it into something functional or artistic. That ability is a core value of human intelligence and one of the main reasons I keep building new projects.


I call myself a creative programmer because that is genuinely how I think when I sit down in front of the keyboard. I do not just follow the common patterns or the typical answers. I try to explore different approaches, push ideas in new directions, and make something that feels unique to me. Whether I am writing a shader, designing a tool, working on ACMX2, or experimenting with new ways to transform video or sound, I always approach it with the mindset of creating something original.


I enjoy solving problems in ways that are not always obvious. Sometimes it means writing code that bends the rules a little, or combining concepts that normally do not go together. Other times it is about finding a visual style or a technical pattern that I have not seen before. That part of the process is what keeps programming interesting for me. It is not just the logic. It is the act of discovery and expression.


To me, creativity is not limited to drawing, music, or traditional art. Creativity is also in the structure of a program, the flow of data, the way something moves, or the way an effect reacts to sound. It is in the decisions I make when shaping a system from scratch. That is why I think creative programming deserves its own category. It is a blend of engineering and imagination. It is technical, but it is also expressive.


Being creative helps me stay motivated. It gives me a sense of direction and lets me take pride in the things I build. It also keeps me connected to the part of myself that wants to explore and grow. I have spent years practicing and learning how to code, and the reason I stuck with it is because it gives me a place to channel my ideas. It gives me control over something constructive and meaningful.


In the end, I believe creativity is one of the most valuable things the human mind has. It allows us to think beyond what already exists and shape our own path. That is why I choose to be a creative programmer. It is not a title. It is how I see the work I do and how I express myself every day through code.


2025.12.08
Why I Do Not Like Being Censored

I wanted to take a moment to talk about something that affects how I create and how I share my work. I do not like being censored. When a platform limits what I say or how I present my ideas, it makes me feel like my thoughts do not matter. It gives me the sense that I am doing something wrong just for expressing my creativity, even though everything I do is within the law and comes from a place of curiosity, learning, and art.


I create software and artwork because it gives me a sense of purpose. It is a long term practice that I have invested years into, and it helps me stay focused and grounded. My posts are not harmful, offensive, or dangerous. They are a mix of code, shaders, graphics, poetry, and ideas. When a system tries to mute that, it feels like it is trying to take away something I worked hard to rebuild after the coma and after all the challenges I have faced.


I am not trying to cause problems. I am not targeting anyone or doing anything malicious. I am simply sharing the creative output of my mind. Censorship tells me that my voice does not belong, and that is the opposite of what creativity is supposed to be. Creativity needs space. It needs freedom to experiment, to push boundaries, to explore different thoughts and expressions without fear of being shut down.


So I want to be clear. I am not hurting anyone, and I am not breaking any rules. I am just creating. I do not need to be censored for that. My work is my way of connecting with the world and staying motivated, and I want a space where I can express it freely.


2025.12.07 (6)
Interactive MX2 Engine C++ Demo
MX2 Engine Demo - ES3 Shader Pack



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